You Will Be Okay

My youngest sister got her heart broken for the first time recently. She cried so hard to my mum. It’s easy for me as an elder and protective sister to be mad at the boy who broke her heart and find him. But I knew she needed that. She needed to feel that. And it may not be the last one too.

Every inch of your soul will hurt. They say a broken heart but it hurts everywhere. You can’t sleep, you can’t eat. You feel lost, worthless, you feel like it’s the end of the world. But you will be okay.

I have been there, now my sister and one day my daughter will too. I hate to think that she will be sad and crushed but like my sister she will need that so that she learns. She will know better who’s worth her love, time and trust and who’s not. She will learn how to manage her feelings. She will be stronger for her own good. It will take time but no matter how long it takes, I will be there.

2012 Done & Dusted

2012 has come to an end. What a year it has been.

It has been a remarkable year for me personally. 2012 was a new phase of life for me. It was the beginning of my career at ESPN Star Sports. So many things happened too fast and if I was to review it, I’m afraid it’s going to be a very long post.

To be honest, I didn’t know what to expect when I took the job. I thought I would only be writing news. I did but it’s so much more than just that. I never thought on my first year as a journalist, I would be breaking news too. Not too much, just a few.

The first controversial news I did was in February. It was my 5th month at ESPN. ‘Sources’ told me that, Peter Butler was going to resign (read here in BM or English) from his post as head coach of Kelantan. At that moment, Kelantan have not lost yet in seven matches but on the day the news broke, they lost 2-1 to Selangor at Bukit Jalil, Stadium.

He claimed that Tan Sri Annuar Musa wants to play coach and he was not happy with that. That was just not his way. 10 days after that, he was ‘rested’ and eventually he left Kelantan.

The next news that we broke was in May when Nazmi Faiz was set to join Portuguese side, Beira-Mar…(Read here in BM or English). It was great for Nazmi to play abroad at such a young age and Malaysians were so proud of him.

We then followed up a bit. When ex-Liverpool, Craig Bellamy came to Singapore, we took a chance to ask him if he had any advice for a young boy like Nazmi to play in Europe. Read and watch the video here. I thought that was a very meaningful and deep message.

The sweetest moment for me was when I covered the Newspaper Cup with Malaysia U-21 in October in Vietnam. I know it’s nothing big like AFF Suzuki Cup but it meant something to me. It was my first time in Vietnam and to be with them throughout the tournament from day one and they actually won it in the end was amazing. The moment when they won, I was happy as if I was part of the team.

On the last day of 2012, I can’t say that I’m not happy with how the year have went. I am in fact thankful for everything that happened in 2012.

I’m not sure what 2013 have in store for me. It might be a bit of a different journey, as most of you may know, Fox Sports have taken over ESPN Star Sports and we will be rebranded by the end of January 2013. I’m actually quite excited about it and looking forward to their plans.

Anyway, Happy New Year to everyone and I hope you will have a blessed year ahead. 🙂